’round about this time last year, I was some place where I’d rather never again be. It was tricky… it was tough. As a person, it has taken a lot of rebuilding over the last 14 months; it’s a matter of confidence I guess, more than anything else.
3-4 months ago, I began questioning my work, where I was going in life, how was career and life going to match up; it was just a whole bunch of confusion without any sense of direction. Perhaps those moments were a blip, a distraction of some sorts. I keep looking back and thinking, why did I seem to lose myself so easily?
On Friday, I kicked back a little over the last 10 minutes or so of the work day, just reviewing the happenings of the last 2 weeks – it has never been so intense. The last week in particular has also been a frustrating one with a certain colleague picking on a couple of us (a couple of others and myself) like a hungry bird pecking the ground for worms (I had no other analogy); it is the last thing which I (or anyone of us needed). It was unfortunate that our bosses have been away, and she (an experienced 50something I must add) is taking the opportunity to be “boss”.
My thought process was interrupted by another colleague with whom I have been working closely over these few days; this person was seen me grow up within the organisation and knows my pedigree from all angles. Just a simple sentence from her made my day and week… “It’s good to have you back”. We shared a smile, and I got going for the weekend, knowing well what she meant.
Confidence is such a crucial factor in the making of a person. It is amazing that when one is low on it, you try so hard and your best effort is often worth nada. Confidence is not something which appears overnight, you may get that impression at times but it really may just be the flick of the switch. Just like the day begins with the sun rising slowly, confidence builds up over a period of time. The crucial thing, if you do recognize it, is to ensure that it doesn’t spill over, and for you to build it up to it’s peak.
As we step into Ramadan this year, there are a number of incidents and events building up around me. Certain things have a sense of deja vu, others feel like amazing co-incidences. All in all, I know that this month brings along with it the spirit required to nurture thoughts, dreams and ambitions; the spiritual side constantly reminds us to stay focused and on the ground, yet it also invites us to grow and better ourself in every area of life.
I feel a second wave coming….
Ramadan Mubarak everyone!
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waiting for the second wave
Ramadan Mubarak
it is part of life to question and doubt ourselves and then rebound. It is this questioning that gives us direction and reaffirms our confidence just like a good word and a smile from a valued colleague or customer makes the world of difference, it revalidates us, it makes all that we have worked for worthwhile.
I would not worry about the second wave there will be many more throughout your life. Just like a surfer waiting for the perfect wave, anticipate and ride it to success.
Be good and enjoy
Hey Cookie Monster,
Ramzaan Mubarak to you and your family…May Allah’s light shine on you all in this holy month and throughout the year..
Well written post..7 months without job made me question a lot about my career too..though I have never been very serious about it…its only important for me for surviving..or else..I can pretty much be at home doing nothing and just dream hehehe..
First thing every morning before you arise say out loud, I believe.
I think everyone goes through it at some point. One thing that baffles me is what the trigger is, and how to overcome this phase. It’s a very tough place to see oneself in, and if one doesn’t come out of there quickly enough, I can’t imagine the consequences being too good.
Glad you did though. Very insightful post
It’s scarily easy to lose oneself. It can happen so slowly over a long time that you barely notice it happen. And then maybe something happens and you suddenly see it. It’s finding and rebuilding that’s the difficult part. But you’ve obviously gotten far. I love when someone else notices that and passes a comment like your colleague did
It’s a wonderful feeling to know people care, especially sometimes those you’d least expect to 
Ramadaan Mubarak
Somehow on most muslim blogs, it seems like a month of birthdays. It’s lovely to read, to say the least. People contemplate on the past year; look forward to the next year; set themselves some goals; admonish themselves for their failures… It’s great.
Confidence comes from appreciating oneself and their work. To be thankful for who I have become and to marvel at my successes is, to me, confidence.
wave from pakistan. hopes you will not mind it.
“ramzan mubarak”
i liked the last line of your post about ramzan.
you know what makes us strong when we feel alone. it is just the spiritual side. I always wait for smile. it is my spiritual side.
Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall. Confucius
i bet you are a good “surfer”
thnx!
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